most days are good, great, in fact. people ask how i'm doing and i'm not lying when i say that things are going well. God has truly blessed me in more ways than i can count. if you know me very well, you probably know that i like to focus on positive things.
and then every once in a while, i feel like i'm suffocating. like i can't breathe and there is no air to be found. i just had one of those moments. and really there is no warning of it, no precursor to tell me to prepare. just a rush of emotions. and in this situation i'm referring to my dad. i was preparing dinner, actually just a salad to accompany last nights' leftovers: stuffed chicken with lemon basil pasta. of course, i'm just following recipes usually. who can't do that? but then when i get my own inspiration to try something new or stray from the black-and-white instructions, i feel the spirit of my dad living through me. i just wish he were here so i could share these things with him.
i don't expect life to seize without my dad but i also want to prepare for the reality of how difficult certain times may be for me. especially over the course of the next year. i'm blessed in my daily life and continue to walk with my Heavenly Father. i'm sure that He, too, appreciates the little things i add to our dinner recipes.
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